I'm having mixed feeling.
Oh Lord, Help me.
I have been really elated lately because of my trip to Japan soon.
Thank God for His grace and miracle that I am able to make it there.
Thank God for helping me through it all.
Thank God for giving me a chance to leave Singapore for a while.
Thank you Jesus that I can have a break, a time to recuperate and recover.
A transition period is always so tough, yet it is filled with new anticipation for a new adventure in my life. I have decided to serve in Chinese ministry! After giving it a thought for the past one year, it's time I obey God and go.
A serenity and new joy came upon my heart for the things to come!
Worshipping God in Mandarin, dancing for Him and serving the elderlys and the young adults! God give me a new compassion for the elderlys. To be able to serve them and see them through the last stage of their lives warm my heart. Ya, what a privilege to be able to do that! Learning to pray in Mandarin will definately do me a lot of good in praying for my brother, dad and people around me. Praise GOD! What a joy came into my heart again!
We love because God first love us!
I finally understand why I can't feel joy for the past one year even though I know deeply I love Jesus so much. That is because I have not step into the place that He has called me into! Now, I feel so loved and in joy again!
This Japan trip, I wish and pray that God will instill lots of His love into my heart, refreshes me with his mercy and grace daily, empower me with his wisdom and power to pray and serve, heal me of all my struggles, brokenness and disappointments.. Let me sing and praise You without limits and without holding back.
Looking back at my last convention pictures Sydney brings back fond memories and sadness... Those happy pictures we took together with the orchids flowers bring tear to my eyes. How I wish we are like what we used to be. Receiving a week of love letters from you knowing that you always miss me whenever I am away...
I actually wanted to leave for as long as possible.... to travel and hopefully to stay and work in other countries as I travel. But I know I can't. I can only pray for God to work miracles in my heart now.
Yup, still looking forward to a wonderful new adventure at Japan! May God bless me with a delightful wonderful fabulous experious and bless you all who are reading my blog now.
God's love endureth forever! Amen!
Friday, August 29, 2008
Thursday, July 31, 2008
peaceful July 2008
Peace is not when things are smooth and when there are no trials or tribulations or trouble. Peace is when you can search deep into your heart to a place of sufficient grace, bountiful love and the serenity of peace when things fail and when things don't go our ways.
Today is the last day of July and I just felt that alot of things had happened in this month. However, the most beautiful thing will be this; spending quality time with God and time praying and worshipping with friends in the presence of God. A deep sense of God's love overwhelm me this month and I just felt so much in love with God again and again.
Thank God for the chance to go to City Harvest twice this month, to hear Pastor Kong Hee preached again is really refreshing! 3 nights spent at Faith Methodist Church from 21st to 23rd July for the 2 years once Christian Counselling Conference! Meeting Dr. Siang Yang Tan and Dr. Wei-Jen Huang and hearing from them was really really great. Dr. Tan told us a love letter from God to us and Dr. Huang told us some really interesting facts and stories. Both of them psychiatrists are really some godly men who are making a great difference in the marketplace. As I mentioned before, Dr. Tan has the noblest face I ever seen while I must say, Dr. Huang (First time seeing him) is the most humble man I ever seen. Dr. Tan is from Singapore but residing in U.S now while Dr. Huang is from Taiwan and residing in U.S too. Dr. Huang came on stage and just thank God for the chance to minister to us, confessing that he is actually not smart but how very bless he is to be used by God now. I am amazed by his humbleness and the way he talked and know deeply in my heart that God always uses the humble hearts. Guess what, I was elated when Stream of Praise came to Singapore too and Jac and I had a really really great time dancing and worshipping for Jesus.
No wonder I felt so in love with God, so many exciting events and words of God just happened this month! I had spent some quality time praying and crying before the Lord too. Went to Jac place and she really is very nice to me. Cooked 3 dishes and ba ku tea soup for me despite her tiredness. Then as usual, I will asked to listen to Stream of Praise songs and as I listened to one song, "abba father", I cried and cried and cried. God is doing some amazing work in my life, changing me bit by bit. Praise God for his love, visions, peace and presence. I pray that I will not be lazy and will spend time with Him daily. Only then, life can be so fruitful and purposeful. Had some good time praying with Hannah, Huili, Laura, Fayth, June and my cell members this month too. Thank God for the chance to pray with Brandon on the 27th July. =)
Of course, not all things will be smooth in life. I failed my driving test again. Yes. Again. What? Shirley! Auto car you know! Yup, I know. That is why I was quite desvastated this time round to fail my driving test for the 2nd time. I even cried infront of the tester when he went to print out my driving test result. I couldnt believe it. Another round of learning and paying for the expensive driving test. For the rest of that day, I was in a bad bad mood. Getting easily frustrated with people around. I even said "I dont want to learn driving again!" to myself. Thank God, I regain my sanity that very night and got back myself the next day. I searched deep into God's love and peace again and thank God for the lesson to learn. Failures, this is how it feel like, Shirley. I believe God is using this experience to teach me to empathise more deeply with people who fail in exams or anything. Thank you Jesus. Now, I can say and really know the pain.
Just watched 2 movies with Brandon today. "Money not enough 2" is rated 1.1/2 stars over 5 by some review. But personally Brandon and myself give it a 4 stars. Why? Even though its not very very funny and unpredictable. It sent out some very relevant lessons for Singaporeans; The poorest man in not the one without a penny in the pocket but the one with no loved ones around to spend money with; Treasure and love your wife who is there for you through thicks and thins; Be content with what you have; Love and cherish your family especially your mom when they are still around. It did bring some sadness to me when I saw one scene that reminded me that mom is not with me now. Cherish when you still can.
I'm reading "Full service" by Dr. Tan Siang Yang now..... another great lessons to learn.... thank you Jesus. Praise you Lord.
Today is the last day of July and I just felt that alot of things had happened in this month. However, the most beautiful thing will be this; spending quality time with God and time praying and worshipping with friends in the presence of God. A deep sense of God's love overwhelm me this month and I just felt so much in love with God again and again.
Thank God for the chance to go to City Harvest twice this month, to hear Pastor Kong Hee preached again is really refreshing! 3 nights spent at Faith Methodist Church from 21st to 23rd July for the 2 years once Christian Counselling Conference! Meeting Dr. Siang Yang Tan and Dr. Wei-Jen Huang and hearing from them was really really great. Dr. Tan told us a love letter from God to us and Dr. Huang told us some really interesting facts and stories. Both of them psychiatrists are really some godly men who are making a great difference in the marketplace. As I mentioned before, Dr. Tan has the noblest face I ever seen while I must say, Dr. Huang (First time seeing him) is the most humble man I ever seen. Dr. Tan is from Singapore but residing in U.S now while Dr. Huang is from Taiwan and residing in U.S too. Dr. Huang came on stage and just thank God for the chance to minister to us, confessing that he is actually not smart but how very bless he is to be used by God now. I am amazed by his humbleness and the way he talked and know deeply in my heart that God always uses the humble hearts. Guess what, I was elated when Stream of Praise came to Singapore too and Jac and I had a really really great time dancing and worshipping for Jesus.
No wonder I felt so in love with God, so many exciting events and words of God just happened this month! I had spent some quality time praying and crying before the Lord too. Went to Jac place and she really is very nice to me. Cooked 3 dishes and ba ku tea soup for me despite her tiredness. Then as usual, I will asked to listen to Stream of Praise songs and as I listened to one song, "abba father", I cried and cried and cried. God is doing some amazing work in my life, changing me bit by bit. Praise God for his love, visions, peace and presence. I pray that I will not be lazy and will spend time with Him daily. Only then, life can be so fruitful and purposeful. Had some good time praying with Hannah, Huili, Laura, Fayth, June and my cell members this month too. Thank God for the chance to pray with Brandon on the 27th July. =)
Of course, not all things will be smooth in life. I failed my driving test again. Yes. Again. What? Shirley! Auto car you know! Yup, I know. That is why I was quite desvastated this time round to fail my driving test for the 2nd time. I even cried infront of the tester when he went to print out my driving test result. I couldnt believe it. Another round of learning and paying for the expensive driving test. For the rest of that day, I was in a bad bad mood. Getting easily frustrated with people around. I even said "I dont want to learn driving again!" to myself. Thank God, I regain my sanity that very night and got back myself the next day. I searched deep into God's love and peace again and thank God for the lesson to learn. Failures, this is how it feel like, Shirley. I believe God is using this experience to teach me to empathise more deeply with people who fail in exams or anything. Thank you Jesus. Now, I can say and really know the pain.
Just watched 2 movies with Brandon today. "Money not enough 2" is rated 1.1/2 stars over 5 by some review. But personally Brandon and myself give it a 4 stars. Why? Even though its not very very funny and unpredictable. It sent out some very relevant lessons for Singaporeans; The poorest man in not the one without a penny in the pocket but the one with no loved ones around to spend money with; Treasure and love your wife who is there for you through thicks and thins; Be content with what you have; Love and cherish your family especially your mom when they are still around. It did bring some sadness to me when I saw one scene that reminded me that mom is not with me now. Cherish when you still can.
I'm reading "Full service" by Dr. Tan Siang Yang now..... another great lessons to learn.... thank you Jesus. Praise you Lord.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Gratitude
My heart is filled with gratitude for God's love and grace!
This world of efficiency and pace and competitions, it's easy to say that we have achieved some awards, some significant, some achievements by our own efforts. I was tempted to say that I have work hard for my OSAKA Japan convention this year but thank God, Thanks to my manager who is a non Christian who reminded me that it is indeed God's grace that I qualified for OSAKA!
No matter how hard we tried in life, nothing can amount to success without God's grace.
Yes, of course we have to work hard to succeed in life. But without a gratitude heart that says, "Apart from God, I can do nothing" John 15, we are actually putting limits to what God can do in our life. We strive and strive and ended up in more despair because we are never satisfied with achievements, we want more and more... and all these are meaningless.
Thank you Jesus for your grace and thank you all who pray and believe together with me that I can qualified for OSAKA. Thank you so much. =)
I'm so excited that I nearly couldn't sleep just planning my itineraries for Japan! I remember 2 years ago, I went to Sydney convention with God's grace!
I was so excited having to travel alone for 3 days! But this time round, I'm abit sad I may have to travel alone for 3 days again. Nobody to share my joy with, nobody to take pictures with me! Haaa.... But God will work it all out for me! =)
This time round, will be going to Toyko Disneyland, backpacking to Mt Fuji and onsen (springwater bath). Will be more exciting than Sydney! Jac may join me at Japan Tokyo. Let's see if everything work out fine. I know it will =)
Thank you JESUS! =)
At this time when I needed more love, God pour out His love through different people and of cos this special gift from Him. =)
Praise the Lord!
This world of efficiency and pace and competitions, it's easy to say that we have achieved some awards, some significant, some achievements by our own efforts. I was tempted to say that I have work hard for my OSAKA Japan convention this year but thank God, Thanks to my manager who is a non Christian who reminded me that it is indeed God's grace that I qualified for OSAKA!
No matter how hard we tried in life, nothing can amount to success without God's grace.
Yes, of course we have to work hard to succeed in life. But without a gratitude heart that says, "Apart from God, I can do nothing" John 15, we are actually putting limits to what God can do in our life. We strive and strive and ended up in more despair because we are never satisfied with achievements, we want more and more... and all these are meaningless.
Thank you Jesus for your grace and thank you all who pray and believe together with me that I can qualified for OSAKA. Thank you so much. =)
I'm so excited that I nearly couldn't sleep just planning my itineraries for Japan! I remember 2 years ago, I went to Sydney convention with God's grace!
I was so excited having to travel alone for 3 days! But this time round, I'm abit sad I may have to travel alone for 3 days again. Nobody to share my joy with, nobody to take pictures with me! Haaa.... But God will work it all out for me! =)
This time round, will be going to Toyko Disneyland, backpacking to Mt Fuji and onsen (springwater bath). Will be more exciting than Sydney! Jac may join me at Japan Tokyo. Let's see if everything work out fine. I know it will =)
Thank you JESUS! =)
At this time when I needed more love, God pour out His love through different people and of cos this special gift from Him. =)
Praise the Lord!
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
JUne 2008
The month of June is enchanting, full of grace & mercy. Well, i like June.
or do I really like it?
Many things have happened.
My heart bled, recovered, hurt again, loved, filled again....
This month is amazing. I'm awed with God's love.
Tough times, but I want to emerge out stronger again.
I have lost someone precious in my life again.
Why Lord? I'm tempted to ask God.
He knows it. My future is in His hands.
He knows best. I should trust in Him.
"I am a new creation in Christ!
I am free to love and be loved again!
I don't need to indulge in pity party anymore.
I am free to forgive & forget"
This simple truth is a revelation to me.
Life can be full of questions or it can be purposeful and fulfilling as we allow God to reveal things bit by bit to us.
"Why does this thing happen to me? It's so hard!"
"Why Lord, I have tried so hard. But why do I still fail? Why?
"Why does this person has to die? He is such a good person? why?"
Stop indulging in thoughts that has no answer.
Why dont we just live each day and trust in a God who will reveal our future to us day by day.
Forgive the person who has hurt you and forget it. Ask God to help even when its hard. Never bear grudges. The devil will torture you with thoughts like that.
Be free to love and be loved again.
Jesus filled my heart with His love.
He sent many people to love me this month.
He knows.
Thank God for many friends who love me. Thank God that You love me so much.
Spent quality time with 6 friends last week.
Spent the most with Jac. God asked her to show me extra extra love these 2 weeks as He probably knows i needed love badly.
So sister Jac sms me love sms everyday every moment telling me how much I am loved by her and God.
Went to East Coast for the 2nd time this month.
I was thinking should I work or go out with her today.
Then I was praying and suddenly I just felt that I needed to meet God at the beach today. So I went and I am so glad I did.
I brought my stretch book with color pencils, my journel along.
Jac bought some bread, mini lettuces, mini tomatoes, honey baked hams and carrot juice. We had a mini pinic and a great time with God.
We sang worship songs, prayed, enjoying the amazing lovely breeze and drew a picture for each others. God is good.
We watched the rain subsided as it came closer to us.
We prayed that the rain will stop and it did.
We enjoyed the breeze.... wonderful.
Thank you Jesus. Thank you for friends who cared.
or do I really like it?
Many things have happened.
My heart bled, recovered, hurt again, loved, filled again....
This month is amazing. I'm awed with God's love.
Tough times, but I want to emerge out stronger again.
I have lost someone precious in my life again.
Why Lord? I'm tempted to ask God.
He knows it. My future is in His hands.
He knows best. I should trust in Him.
"I am a new creation in Christ!
I am free to love and be loved again!
I don't need to indulge in pity party anymore.
I am free to forgive & forget"
This simple truth is a revelation to me.
Life can be full of questions or it can be purposeful and fulfilling as we allow God to reveal things bit by bit to us.
"Why does this thing happen to me? It's so hard!"
"Why Lord, I have tried so hard. But why do I still fail? Why?
"Why does this person has to die? He is such a good person? why?"
Stop indulging in thoughts that has no answer.
Why dont we just live each day and trust in a God who will reveal our future to us day by day.
Forgive the person who has hurt you and forget it. Ask God to help even when its hard. Never bear grudges. The devil will torture you with thoughts like that.
Be free to love and be loved again.
Jesus filled my heart with His love.
He sent many people to love me this month.
He knows.
Thank God for many friends who love me. Thank God that You love me so much.
Spent quality time with 6 friends last week.
Spent the most with Jac. God asked her to show me extra extra love these 2 weeks as He probably knows i needed love badly.
So sister Jac sms me love sms everyday every moment telling me how much I am loved by her and God.
Went to East Coast for the 2nd time this month.
I was thinking should I work or go out with her today.
Then I was praying and suddenly I just felt that I needed to meet God at the beach today. So I went and I am so glad I did.
I brought my stretch book with color pencils, my journel along.
Jac bought some bread, mini lettuces, mini tomatoes, honey baked hams and carrot juice. We had a mini pinic and a great time with God.
We sang worship songs, prayed, enjoying the amazing lovely breeze and drew a picture for each others. God is good.
We watched the rain subsided as it came closer to us.
We prayed that the rain will stop and it did.
We enjoyed the breeze.... wonderful.
Thank you Jesus. Thank you for friends who cared.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Church Camp pictures!!!
Beautiful beach at Cha' am
Cailing so happy =)
Outside Market village....... nice massage there
We are back!
The very nice fried rice at chatucha market..... =p
the 4 brothers in christ! mighty warriors of God!
The powerful sisters- in-christ for Jesus
Horse riding at the beach.....
Last lunch at Holiday Inn resort...... last day of Camp!
Cailing gal & I!
Dear & me at Nana station, where our Royal Benja Hotel is situated!
At the market Village... at Cha' AmExtRaOrdinAry Church Camp 2008!
Praise God for church camp!
I miss church camp so much so much.....
to be with God's people and in God's presence everyday and
having services daily!
So wonderful to be able to worship God and hearing His words..
Praise God!
IM very happy that May 2008 is over.....
Serious... it has been so stressful for me....
Im glad it is over.... I was preparing for my driving test and took it on 15th May.
Then I began to work for my convention to Japan OSAKA that end in May.
ha.... didnt know why all my closing appts postpone and postpone week after week... my clients are too busy with work... I ended up being panic over it especially in the last week of May.
Thank God for a miraclous appt at the last min and I managed to submit everything on the 30th may. IM leaving the outcome to God... whether I will go to OSAKA or not is up to Him. Thank God.. His ways are higher than my ways.. there is always a purpose for everything that happens.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~J~E~S~U~S~~S~A~V~E~S~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Back to Church camp..... immediately after my last appt on 31st May, I went home and packed my lugguage for the next day. Fly off to Bangkok for a day shopping on 1st June. Very happy to have spend time with dear and dear friends..... bought 1 dress, 1 shirt, 2 bags and some facial products...
didnt really spend alot of money... in all, I spent around 100 bucks only for the whole trip! haaaa........
Camp started off on 2nd June to 5th June......
We have Pastor David Doery and Rev Ong Sek Liang as our extraordinary speakers. Teaching us how to live an extraordinary life! Amen!
Had a good time and I commit to spend 1 hour daily with my Lord, praying for the will of God to be done in my life. Thank God. Amen!
I miss church camp so much so much.....
to be with God's people and in God's presence everyday and
having services daily!
So wonderful to be able to worship God and hearing His words..
Praise God!
IM very happy that May 2008 is over.....
Serious... it has been so stressful for me....
Im glad it is over.... I was preparing for my driving test and took it on 15th May.
Then I began to work for my convention to Japan OSAKA that end in May.
ha.... didnt know why all my closing appts postpone and postpone week after week... my clients are too busy with work... I ended up being panic over it especially in the last week of May.
Thank God for a miraclous appt at the last min and I managed to submit everything on the 30th may. IM leaving the outcome to God... whether I will go to OSAKA or not is up to Him. Thank God.. His ways are higher than my ways.. there is always a purpose for everything that happens.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~J~E~S~U~S~~S~A~V~E~S~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Back to Church camp..... immediately after my last appt on 31st May, I went home and packed my lugguage for the next day. Fly off to Bangkok for a day shopping on 1st June. Very happy to have spend time with dear and dear friends..... bought 1 dress, 1 shirt, 2 bags and some facial products...
didnt really spend alot of money... in all, I spent around 100 bucks only for the whole trip! haaaa........
Camp started off on 2nd June to 5th June......
We have Pastor David Doery and Rev Ong Sek Liang as our extraordinary speakers. Teaching us how to live an extraordinary life! Amen!
Had a good time and I commit to spend 1 hour daily with my Lord, praying for the will of God to be done in my life. Thank God. Amen!
Friday, April 11, 2008
April's fool....
I wish it was a joke.
My cousin Fengyi sms us today that cousin Zhuangmin is in coma and not out of danger yet, suffering from brain damage.
My sister really thought that its a joke.... but I know its not...
who will joke about this?
Just went to visit him at NUH ICU, was really sad to see him...
He is really in serious condition and it takes nothing less than a miracle to see him well again.. heard from aunt that his brain was lacked of oxygen for 1-2 days... normally more than 4 min and that its!
His brain swelled and there were blood vessals burst too.
Cousin Zhuangmin is physically very fit and used to be a gym instructor. He was healthy and a very responsible and nice person as described by his boss and friends. I saw my aunt burst into tear everytimes she describe his condition and doctor had advised her to be prepared for the worst. Cousin Fengyi was desvastated too.
Jesus! The only Name that save!
I pray Jesus that You heal him and heal him and heal him.
Nothing is impossible with you Lord!
I speak recovery into his being right now! Lord, work in his brain right now and heal every part of his body. Lord, I know that you are going to cause him to be a miracle and everyone will turn their eyes upon You and give You all the glory. For Your name sake, preserve his life Lord!
I thank you and praise you.
In Jesus most precious name, amen!
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My sister turned to us and said, after looking at him, she felt so xin fu (blissful) that she is alive. Ya, let us all remember this. Life is precious and beautiful.
Treasure your loved ones before they are gone.
My cousin Fengyi sms us today that cousin Zhuangmin is in coma and not out of danger yet, suffering from brain damage.
My sister really thought that its a joke.... but I know its not...
who will joke about this?
Just went to visit him at NUH ICU, was really sad to see him...
He is really in serious condition and it takes nothing less than a miracle to see him well again.. heard from aunt that his brain was lacked of oxygen for 1-2 days... normally more than 4 min and that its!
His brain swelled and there were blood vessals burst too.
Cousin Zhuangmin is physically very fit and used to be a gym instructor. He was healthy and a very responsible and nice person as described by his boss and friends. I saw my aunt burst into tear everytimes she describe his condition and doctor had advised her to be prepared for the worst. Cousin Fengyi was desvastated too.
Jesus! The only Name that save!
I pray Jesus that You heal him and heal him and heal him.
Nothing is impossible with you Lord!
I speak recovery into his being right now! Lord, work in his brain right now and heal every part of his body. Lord, I know that you are going to cause him to be a miracle and everyone will turn their eyes upon You and give You all the glory. For Your name sake, preserve his life Lord!
I thank you and praise you.
In Jesus most precious name, amen!
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My sister turned to us and said, after looking at him, she felt so xin fu (blissful) that she is alive. Ya, let us all remember this. Life is precious and beautiful.
Treasure your loved ones before they are gone.
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