Valentine's day... Miracles upon miracles

It has been an eventful short month February.
Love, miracles, joy and tears filled the air of February.
02. 02 is my anniversary day with dear.
04. 02 is my mom's promotion to heaven day.
07. 02 starts the chinese new year celebration.
14. 02 is Valentine's day.

Had an heartbreaking time with dear which leads to supposingly a "tragic" end to our 2 years relationship to a miracle bonding of this relationship.

When men look at situation and sighed, "It's impossible... hopeless"
God can turn things around and said to you, "My child, all things are possible with me."

This month is a faith building month for me too as I see miracles unfold day by day.. whether it's a small miracle or big ones... Miracles do happen.. and cherish them when you meet them.

We hurted each others deeply, we thought of giving up, God intervention, we reconciled, we hugged, we forgave, we loved.

Those white roses saved our relationship. First miracle.

God has been speaking to me.. all the times..
but I have neglected Him.. many times i know.
"Sorry Lord."

Met up with sis Jacqueline, she has been encouraging and God has been using her to encourage me this month.

Should I stayed on in English ministry? The service that I am so used to, the cell members who have been with me for 4 years, the lives I have imparted into, the prayer language that I am so used to...

vs.. going to the Chinese ministry... is it a calling from God? To do greater things for Him? to touch more lives? to become who God has called me to be?

When I know dear has been praying for me for the past 1 year, I am touched.
I know God is hearing and He is preparing me for this change.

I need courage and acceptance into the Chinese ministry.. most of all, I need God's confirmation.. His voice to call me into this ministry.

All for Jesus, I give my life.

I have found the greatest joy of all... that is to share God's love with a person.
I have been slacking in this area... but God is bringing me back.. (Thank God)
to live life with intent, with purpose.

Indeed life is fragile.
Attending funerals are common to me... but this time, I see it as an opportunity to share God's bountiful love with the family members of the deceased.

Just attended someone whom I do not know's funeral wake on Valentine's day. A young girl at the age of 23 diagnosed with brain cancer and suffered for 1 year before her promotion to Heaven. As I chatted with her sister, I know that she has no medical record of bad health. She has always been in the pink of health.

Just before going to this funeral, i have been reading "the 7 habits of highly effective people" again. In chapter 2, the author asked us to imagine going to a familiar person funeral... imagine.... when we came face to face to the person in the coffin, we come to reality.. that the person is us ourselves.

He continued to asked the reader to think and visualised what do you want to see your friends and family members talk about you on your funeral wake.
Will they see you as a person who love and prioritised family as very important in your life, someone who cares for people deeply... or perhaps someone who only works hard to bring the money home but never did spend time with your loved ones?

Habit 2 that says "Begin with the end in mind" is a wonderful habit that I want to master. It says that if at the end of my life, I want people to remember me as a loving and faithful person, then I work towards becoming that NOW. Many things are not under my control, so why worry about things that I can't control?
Some people can worry their own lives and come to realise that all these do not matter at all in the end. Chapter 1 talks about "Being proactive" (I will elabarated in future is possible) and also touch on focusing on our area of influence rather than on our area of concern.

Area of Concern: Unreasonable boss, quarrelsome wife, war, bad economy, problems at work, our health

Area of influence: Things within the area of concern that WE CAN DO SOMETHING about.
eg, exercise more, look within self to improve ourselves, work harder, become more loving, more forgiving.

Things that we have NO control over, we dont worry.
Focus in the area of infiluence. focus on "be" rather than "have"

Circle of concern: "If only I have a more patient husband"
"If only I have a better job"
"If I have more time to myself.."

Circle of influence: "I can be more patient"
"I can be loving"
Things that we have control over.

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ops.. didn;t know why I diverted to talking about habits 1 and 2...
Probably because I was talking on funerals.. that led me to urge all my friends and loved ones to really live our lives to the fullest, if i know I am going to die tomorrow, I wont worry so much on the trival stuffs that happen daily and is not within my control.. life is fragile yet very very precious...

back to topic................

So i focus on sharing Christ's love to the sister that day and thank God, she received Jesus into her life that day. She will see her sister one day in Heaven. What a great joy! =)

Miracle 2: On Friday, davy came into office and shouted that his laptop blacked out! and he is very devastated indeed. He need his laptop for work and appointments and everything is inside. He called up friends to try fixing his laptop and had tried all means to try to retrieve his laptop normal self and in vain. As I was about to leave, I thought what a great miracle it will be if I pray for his laptop to "recover" and it did! But frankly speaking, I think at that moment, I have little faith. I struggled for 1 sec, "my pride (if i pray and nothing happen.. very pai sey" or "God's glory if i pray, and God resurrect the laptop"

At the second, I chose 2: to pray.
Still without faith, (but using Jesus's faith) I prayed aloud over the laptop in the presence of Davy and his secretary.

I quickly turn over after I prayed and upon Davy calling me around to see if my prayers work, i turned around facing him and waited expectedly for the result!
My heart pound, "Lord, do it!"

Davy's eyes lit up and shouted "Shirley! It works! It works!

Praise the Lord! His laptop resurrected miraclously! =)

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Went for my interview to become an Associate Agency Manager.

It is God's vision 2 years ago, "Shirley, you will start your own agency in 2008" that encouraged me to go for this interview.

Never really consider this because I know there are alot of things that I have got to learn... and also being a manager in my line is really not easy.. I doubt i can handle it... seriously .. in my own strength.

but I walk by faith, not by sight.

I can just walk step by step with God who holds my future.

Amen! All glory to God!

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